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I know I've fallen off the radar in recent weeks and I've decided to confront the reasons why. This is an uncomfortable topic for me (and many others) and I've debated whether or not to discuss it on here but I finally came to the conclusion that there are plenty of other people out there with similar problems to me and we can all support each other!
Basically I've suffered with body confidence issues for as long as I can remember. I've never been massively confident and no matter how I've felt inside I've always just got on with it and tried to make the most of myself even when I've been feeling rubbish.
We all have days when we look in the mirror and quite like what we see and we all have days when we look in the mirror and violently dislike what we see. Recently whenever I look into the mirror I'm most definately feeling the latter. I hate my hair, I hate my face, I hate my body...blah blah blah. Us girls know the drill. Outfit photographs seem to be out of the question because I can't stand the thought of letting someone take pictures of me.
Blogging has been a real eye opener for me. I've discovered some amazing girls who are so comfortable in their own skin and you can see how happy and healthy they are. After coming across this community I wondered if maybe some of this positivity would rub off onto me and I really hoped it would. After being on a diet for most of my teenage life (without results, obviously) I decided to jack it in and try and live my life.
Unfortunately the self acceptance and body acceptance I've craved hasn't come to me. I'm not happy with how I look along with the fact that I don't feel overly healthy and it's been getting me down more than it ever has.
I recently made the decision to join Slimming World and the gym in the hope that these two combining factors are going to help me feel better. I don't have a target of any kind at the moment.Whether I send up at a size 16 or a size 10 isn't important to me. I just want to look and feel generally better in myself. I said back in my New Years post that I wanted to do something this year to make myself proud and maybe this will be it.
I don't want this post to sound like I'm against anyone who loves being a plus size or anything like that. I'd love to be happy with who I am right now but at the end of the day I'm not and life is too short to be miserable. I know I've made this all sound rather vain and superficial as if life is all about how you look but I have plenty other deep rooted issues to do with my weight that I could go into but we'll be here all day. I've ummed and ahhed over posting this post but finally decided to post it and hope for the best.
I'm going to post little updates on my progress and if anyone is interested (& doing slimming world too) I might post a few recipes too. We can support each other :)